You’ve probably all heard the phrase the ‘first shitty draft.’ Anne Lamott coins it in her fabulous book on writing,Bird by Bird(which if you haven’t already read, needs to go on your Urgent Books to Read list).
First drafts are shitty. It’s in their nature to be bad. Our problem lies in our expectation that first drafts should be good.
Think of the first time you tried anything – a kiss (how sloppy, how ‘where-the-hell-should-the-tongue-go?); a recipe (overcooked, raw, unflavoured, soggy in the middle); a musical instrument (how the hell can it be so hard to strum?). Why do we expect that our first writing attempts will just sing on the page? We will be clumsy. We will be verbose. We will tell too much and not show at all and we won’t even know the difference. We will sink into cliché and think it’s marvellously profound and we’ll write in the passive voice believing it sounds fancy and professional.
Our first drafts will suck. They are meant to.
The problem is that we think it means we suck. The shittiness joins forces with our inner critic and very soon we’re in the shame zone, feeling like we’ll never write again.
But I’ve got a different way of thinking about shitty and sucky first writing attempts. I call them ‘wabi-sabi’ drafts. ‘Wabi-sabi’ is a Japanese term (derived from art) which denotes the beauty of that which is imperfect, impermanent and incomplete. We can learn so much from our broken attempts, from our ineptness, from our misshapen inelegance. We can grow in acceptance and compassion, and find the joy in effort and grace.
WINGS: Words Inspire, Nourish and Grow the Spirit
Alice Walker’s poem “I Will Keep Broken Things” offers some insights here:
I will keep brokenthings:the big clay potwith raised iguanaschasing theirtails; twoof their wiseheads sheared off;
I will keep broken things: the old slave market basket brought tomy door by Mississippi a jaggedhole gougedin its sturdy darkoak side.
I will keep broken things:The memory ofthose long delicious night swims with you;
I will keep broken things:
In my housethere remains an honored shelfon which I will keep broken things.
Their beauty isthey need not ever be “fixed.”
I will keep your wildfree laughter though it is now missing itsreassuring andgraceful hinge.I will keep broken things:
Thank youSo much!
I will keep broken things.I will keep you:pilgrim of sorrow.I will keep myself.
The questions I ask writers about their first drafts are:What is imperfect about this draft?What is incomplete about it?Where are the cracks?Where is the wisdom and beauty in this draft?And most importantly:
What do you love about this draft?
Find what you love in what is broken, and brokenness will become part of the story you are telling.
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